Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about what it means to be “normal.” I’ve found the answer consistently lies in things that are currently out of my reach because of the horrible little town I’m trapped in. Here’s what normal means to me, as an intelligent, talented, fully capable woman with a college degree who is heavily invested in her professional career:
1. Having a regular group of friends/coworkers who I can go out with and rant about shitty jobs, fuckboys, and everything else under the sun.
2. Being gainfully employed SOMEWHERE and paying for all of my own shit.
3. Trying to date but ultimately realizing the majority of men are basic, generic, totally annoying fuckboys with weird fixations that have nothing to do with me as a person. And getting married means nothing, because they will just cheat on you with a younger woman when you get fat and pregnant.
4. Regular brunch outings.
5. Sharing memes like there’s no tomorrow.
I LITERALLY HATE THE FACT THAT I CANNOT FIND THIS SHIT IN THE HORRIBLE LITTLE TOWN I LIVE IN AND THAT NO MATTER WHAT I DO TO GET OUT I CAN’T SEEM TO FUCKING MAKE IT.
I’m so mad right now. All my life I’ve been told that I’m crazy. Here’s the real twist: I am a normal person. I have the same issues as everyone else my age. All I’m lacking is a group of people to sit around a table with and angrily drink with about stupid adulting shit. Further more, every time I try I just find myself the outcast. It’s driving me CRAZY.
UGH. INSERT MORE ANGRY RANTING HERE. SOMEBODY PLEASE HELP ME FIX MY LIFE BECAUSE I CAN’T SEEM TO DO IT MYSELF. EVERYONE ELSE FOUND GREAT MENTORS IN COLLEGE TO HELP THEM GET OUT OF THIS TOWN. WHAT IS SO WRONG WITH ME THAT NO ONE IN THIS STUPID, MISERABLE, HORRIBLE LITTLE FUCKING TOWN WILL JUST HELP ME GET THE FUCK OUT?!?!?!?!?
*rants angrily a little bit more*
And by the way, fuck all these old ass first-wave bitches who say they support feminism. Your feminism hasn’t helped me get a job, but it sure helped that PERFECT chick over there who was nice and pretty and quiet and minded her own business. So, you tell me who’s the real enemy here.
UGH UGH UGHUGHUGH
I hate everything in the world right now. That’s just how I feel.
SOMEBODY HELP ME THE FUCK OUT BECAUSE NOTHING I’M DOING IS FUCKING WORKING.