Today I went to work. And by that I mean, I did the writing job I (currently) do not get paid for but soon will. I put on my newspaper print dress, took out my notebook, and got to work.
First I watched a National Geographic documentary about women working in environmental science fields dubbed into French. I was feeling pretty bad earlier, so it was just the inspiration I needed to get me going for the day.
They interviewed quite a few women working on conservation projects in various parts of East Africa. Every time I see footage of those countries, all I can think about is how much I want to go there. Seriously, if I could, I would just fly to Nairobi and work my way down to Cape Town. I would just write about it all. Can you even imagine how amazing it would be to wake up in a tent in the middle of Tanzania to watch the sunrise? I want to see all of the animals. All of them. It’s been a dream for as long as I can remember.
As a side note, I’ve noticed watching movies and tv shows dubbed into French almost every day has really improved my listening comprehension. I still struggle to speak, but I can understand most of what is being said. My personality is much more reserved in French. I do a lot of communicating through smiling and batting my eyelashes innocently. As I recall, the guy I dated during study abroad “preferred my personality in English.” Lol, so that’s a real thing for bilinguals.
The second movie I watched was Mulan. I am 31 and I still watch this movie once or twice a month on average. Why? Because Mulan inspires me, especially when I feel like shit. I love how the entire movie questions and plays with gender. I love Mulan as a strong female character. I admire her strength, courage, bravery, quick-thinking, and kindness. I always walk away from that movie feeling like I can take on an army of Huns (or whoever I may encounter that day). 14/10 will definitely watch again in three weeks.
I took a break to check the news and saw that Gone With The Wind is up for review again. I’ve been engaged in critical debates about this movie for just about 15 years now. There’s a lot to talk about in that movie, so I wanted to see if there was anything new appearing in the discussions. Unfortunately, most of the comments I saw were along the line of “I haven’t seen it, BUT… here’s my opinion on what I think it is based on what I’ve heard.” Sigh. Such is the state of the world we live in.
I thought, well, if you’re not going to watch it, then I will. I’ve got the four disc DVD set. I admit I’ve seen it many times. I like it because of the love story and because Scarlett is a strong female character. I like it, but I am willing to engage with it critically and learn from it. I am particularly interested in the question of how to responsibly write historical fiction. Yes, I am ready to take on this assignment.
Of course, I made the mistake of not considering it an assignment at first. It didn’t occur to me until about three hours in that I should be paying attention and taking notes so I can write an article about it. Derp. That’s kinda my job as a writer. Herp derp. So now I will probably have to go back and watch it again, which is fine with me.
I should do a series on “Movies I Watched So You Don’t Have To.” I am partially inspired by the recent lack of interesting material on my formerly favourite blog, Jezebel. They published an article about Interview with the Vampire that was literally one of the laziest things I’ve ever read. I had just watched it the week before in French and there was SO MUCH to unpack. Yet this writer was like “I half-watched it while high, lol isn’t Tom Cruise so cheesy?” What a waste. I can’t believe she is getting paid to publish that trash while I’m sitting here doing nothing.
Hey, look! Motivation! Voilà! I’m coming for your job, girl! You’re not doing it so I will gladly take over for you!
Funny, I am ending this day feeling much better about the general direction of my life. I feel like I’ve made the best decision for me. I am a writer. This is who I am. This is what I do. I don’t need to be a bartender anymore. Instead, I will focus all of my energy into acquiring a writing job. There are plenty of opportunities out there. It just takes time and patience.
Okay, time for bed. Hopefully I will have a better dream tonight than last night. I asked my spirit guide for advice about whether I should take the bartending job and had a terrible dream instead. That seems like one of his practical jokes. I woke up hearing him say, “It doesn’t matter what you want because Donald Trump is destroying the world.” Gee, thanks for the uplifting advice, Mr. Spirit Guide. That really makes me feel better about the future…