I am the Goddess of My Domain. Do you hear that, world? Let me say it again, a little louder for all the people in the back: I AM THE GODDESS OF MY DOMAIN! I control all I create. The world is mine, all mine, mine to do with as I please!
Thank you, random writers in my Facebook group. I’m not sure why that particular message worked, but it did! HA HA!
I’m having different feelings about my works since 2016 (Andrew, Bloody Mary’s, The Island of Lost Guys, Liz, misc stuff) after re-discovering that old script today. I just kept reading it over and over and over again. Can you even believe that character development?! WOW! Especially with Tom. You have no idea what I had to go through to get that character correct. I’m not even joking right now. It was fucking brutal, but I FINALLY nailed it! PROUD OF MYSELF!
I feel like I am looking at this stuff with new eyes. It really isn’t that bad at all. I mean, yeah, most of it is definitely random side-stories written purely for the sake of character development, but that’s okay! That is part of the writing process! There is nothing for me to feel guilty about or ashamed of. These are my characters. I created them. I mean, yeah, they are based on real people, but… like… I literally never see or talk to any of them anymore, and nobody outside of this shithole even knows who they are IRL. So… who cares?!
I literally wrote thousands of pages about these characters. That’s impressive no matter who you are. We all know these haters can barely string together a sentence as it is. It doesn’t matter what they think. Why? Because I am the Goddess of My Domain! I rule my world. I create as I see fit. If you don’t like it, you can log off my website and do something else. It’s obviously not for you.
I’m really happy I feel like this right now. Post-Paris life has been a STRUGGLE. There was a solid 4 month span where I couldn’t even look at my Andrew binder without bursting into tears. I couldn’t read any of my Bloody Mary’s stories without getting angry. I just had negative feelings about everything because I was surrounded by negative people projecting their crazy bullshit onto me. But I don’t have to let that effect me anymore. I have accomplished a lot in the last four years.
When I drove out to LA, I had nothing. Nothing at all. That’s why I turned around and came home. Now? Wow. Holy crap! I don’t know what it is, but it’s definitely something!
In light of all of the magical transformation I’ve undergone this week, I shall be re-posting most of that content. I’ve been hiding it away, both because I felt the pressure to “make it something” and because I was ashamed. Of what I don’t know. Clearly, I shouldn’t be. Hello! We’re talking about THOUSANDS of pages here! Do you see any of these two-faced backstabbing snakes pumping out this much content like it’s their job? No! They’re not doing shit because they’re too busy trying to drag everyone else around down to their level. Who needs it? Not me!
So, stay tuned for New-Old content to come back online! This website deserves to shine in its full glory. After all, it is my portfolio. It should be read thoroughly by anyone who stumbles upon it!
Wow, I’m in SUCH a good mood right now. Hurray for loving my writing, even when it’s not perfect! Especially when, perhaps…
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